Today I heard a little voice that said:
“You can’t be a Mother again. It’s probably best if you lose this baby too, ’cause your not doing a very good job with the other 3. Why would you even want another one? What if Zoe can’t manage the transition. You can’t handle Zoe, a newborn and all your other responsibilities.” I know that kind of talk isn’t helpful, but it is real.
I yelled today, I was tired today. I was an authoritarian today. I was crabby and cranky at times and other times I was patient and encouraging. Is this normal, is this hormones? This must be Pregnancy Hormones? I think there are a lot of things triggering me. It’s always fun to go and spend $800 on a car repair and feel like there is so much around the house to do that says “your not doing a good enough job.”
It all creates stress…gotta knock that habit.